Hair (again!)

I read somewhere that there is a kind of a let down after chemotherapy. I think that is true. No more high drama of chemotherapy. No more doctor visits where my whole life hangs on what the doctor says. I feel quite healthy. And Im able to do everything. But Im still bald! Ok there is some fuzz there. But it has been 6 weeks since my last chemo, and it is very slow going on the hair front. I can't really put all this behind me until I can look in the mirror and see the me that used to be. Well I suppose that me no longer exists. But this me should at least have some hair on her head. The odd thing is that it is bothering me more now, than when I was totally and completely bald. I guess I had bigger fish to fry then. I now have eyebrows again. That's something! Im really tired of wearing a wig that looks like a wig! The other day I went to the gym with just my fuzz of a head. It took courage. But it was a non event. People at the gym are so into their workouts that they barely notice other people. It felt really good to have nothing on my head. The sweat was able to evaporate normally and keep my head cool. There was one man who happened to have long grey hair and a long beard who was very nice to me. He seemed to be going out of his way to strike up a conversation. I guess thats the sympathy vote, pretend everything is normal to the point that it points out that it isn't normal.
Last night I dreamed that I looked in the mirror and my hair was back, so full and long that I needed a haircut. The dream was so real that I woke up expecting it to be true. But alas, it wasn't!