Now I'm going to tackle a subject that has been on my mind since this whole adventure started and before.
I have been the recipient of more than one miracle in my life.
One of them is the restoration of my eyesight that was being compromised by macular degeneration. This is a progressive condition that causes the central part of the field of vision to deteriorate. There is no known cure. But it can be slowed by various treatments and by taking a special combination of vitamins called AREDS. Because of our excellent health insurance I was able to go to one of the foremost eye research and treatment centers in the world, Shiley Eye Center. My vision was miraculously restored through an experimental procedure that is no longer done because they didn't get the results they were looking for. The procedure was only meant to halt the progress of the disease, but it actually reversed the damage. During this time many were praying for me. I absolutely believe that my vision was restored by divine intervention through the treatment I received at Shiley.
At various times in my life I have been deeply involved in evangelical Christianity, starting at age 13 when I was born again by asking Jesus into my heart. A portal to heaven was opened that has never closed. Jesus was and is as real to me as any human being. I have also experienced angelic presences and intervention in my life. Sometimes someone I love reaches out to me from beyond the grave, i.e. my Dad and my son Mike, to give me love, insight and reassurance.
And now I am basking in the joy of knowing that my cancer has been cured. On November 1, 2011, I was told that I have aggressive large B cell non Hodgkins lymphoma throughout my body. I was also told it was curable. This was hard for me to believe until 10 days later when I was told that a tumor the size of a grapefruit was gone. After that I was on board for the cure. On Monday, 2 1/2 months later I was told the cancer is completely eradicated.
During this time many people were praying for me, each in the way that felt best to them. This included my large family, my mother's prayer chain, and a large Baptist church here in San Diego as well as various people who are not involved with any church. Throughout this experience I have felt nothing but peace and confidence. That in itself is a miracle, considering the diagnosis.
I no longer align myself with evangelical Christianity. I feel it is a limiting belief system that doesn't allow for truths from other sources to be considered. My feeling is that God is much bigger than the any box he could be put in. I have hesitated to make this statement for many years, because I know it will be troubling to my beloved family members who feel that this is the only way to God and to heaven. But I know they know how I feel. I so very much appreciate their prayers on my behalf. And I acknowledge that God has responded. I feel that there is room for my beliefs and their beliefs in this big and complicated world we live in. Im guessing that their hope is that I will return to the 'fold' so to speak because of my experiences with miracles. I have never left the fold. I love the Lord. I feel His presence in my life. I just love Him outside of the box. I feel very comfortable outside the box. Of course this experience will and has changed me in ways I can not even imagine yet. All of life is about growth. If we are open to all that can be learned, we are alive. I am very much alive. Im very glad for the prayers and intersession on my behalf. My family and friends have come through for me in so many ways. I shall always be grateful. May I say to all of you, please love me as I am, and I love you as you are. We are not so far apart as you might think. Rest assured that I too was praying, as even now, I pray for someone else that I dearly love who is experiencing health problems.
Most of all I praise God for His miracles. From time to time, I may take God out of the God box by calling God, I AM, the Universe or All That Is. To me each label is a slightly different nuance of the universal love that surrounds us all. That's what all this is about, different ways of experiencing and expressing love. In the immortal words of the Beatles. 'All we need is love.' Maybe the best word for God is Love.
At various times in my life I have been deeply involved in evangelical Christianity, starting at age 13 when I was born again by asking Jesus into my heart. A portal to heaven was opened that has never closed. Jesus was and is as real to me as any human being. I have also experienced angelic presences and intervention in my life. Sometimes someone I love reaches out to me from beyond the grave, i.e. my Dad and my son Mike, to give me love, insight and reassurance.
And now I am basking in the joy of knowing that my cancer has been cured. On November 1, 2011, I was told that I have aggressive large B cell non Hodgkins lymphoma throughout my body. I was also told it was curable. This was hard for me to believe until 10 days later when I was told that a tumor the size of a grapefruit was gone. After that I was on board for the cure. On Monday, 2 1/2 months later I was told the cancer is completely eradicated.
During this time many people were praying for me, each in the way that felt best to them. This included my large family, my mother's prayer chain, and a large Baptist church here in San Diego as well as various people who are not involved with any church. Throughout this experience I have felt nothing but peace and confidence. That in itself is a miracle, considering the diagnosis.
I no longer align myself with evangelical Christianity. I feel it is a limiting belief system that doesn't allow for truths from other sources to be considered. My feeling is that God is much bigger than the any box he could be put in. I have hesitated to make this statement for many years, because I know it will be troubling to my beloved family members who feel that this is the only way to God and to heaven. But I know they know how I feel. I so very much appreciate their prayers on my behalf. And I acknowledge that God has responded. I feel that there is room for my beliefs and their beliefs in this big and complicated world we live in. Im guessing that their hope is that I will return to the 'fold' so to speak because of my experiences with miracles. I have never left the fold. I love the Lord. I feel His presence in my life. I just love Him outside of the box. I feel very comfortable outside the box. Of course this experience will and has changed me in ways I can not even imagine yet. All of life is about growth. If we are open to all that can be learned, we are alive. I am very much alive. Im very glad for the prayers and intersession on my behalf. My family and friends have come through for me in so many ways. I shall always be grateful. May I say to all of you, please love me as I am, and I love you as you are. We are not so far apart as you might think. Rest assured that I too was praying, as even now, I pray for someone else that I dearly love who is experiencing health problems.
Most of all I praise God for His miracles. From time to time, I may take God out of the God box by calling God, I AM, the Universe or All That Is. To me each label is a slightly different nuance of the universal love that surrounds us all. That's what all this is about, different ways of experiencing and expressing love. In the immortal words of the Beatles. 'All we need is love.' Maybe the best word for God is Love.
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