The mind body connection

I believe that the mind and body are connected in ways we just barely understand. So I have been thinking about what my body is expressing by creating this mass in my upper abdominal area. One of my life challenges has been my weight. I lost 50 lbs about 3 years ago by dieting and religiously following a prescribed program. I was more obsessed than ever with food. Since I was counting and planning every morsel that went into my mouth, and I always felt hungry, I found myself  waiting until I could eat the next thing. the next thing was never enough. So I only got a brief respite from the hunger. I was working out regularly, pushing my body. It was wonderful to loose the weight. Even when I was 190 lbs, I was obsessed with food. So it is no wonder that my body formed a big knot in my stomach.
Another factor is Mike.Link to my blog about Michael He had all sorts of stomach issues all his life. So many times when he was with us he would be in the bathroom throwing up. He had a lot of stomach pain. When he was dying of liver failure the pain was excruciating.  It feels like I have taken on his pain, his knot in the stomach. 
Now I must figure out how to redirect my body, mind, spirit. It won't be by intellectualizing this. That won't be the path to freedom from all of this. I will simply  love my body and offer it healing and peace from the level of my soul. I will ask for wisdom and I will get it.  I will wait for love to heal. It always does.