The mind, friend or foe?

My goodness but my mind has been working overtime. During the day I am able to redirect my thoughts. But at night, I can't push them away. As I try to go to sleep I think about all the things I didn't let myself think about during the day. Thank heaven for my medication. I have a certain amount of flexibility with the medication that helps me sleep. In other words, I can add more if Im not sleeping. Almost invariably I have to get up and take just a small amount more so I can go to sleep.
When I awake in the morning, I find myself putting my affairs in order. I want to finish clearing out the things that I no longer want or need that have been piling up around the house in corners and closets and drawers.  I think of random things like, Frank doesn't know how to do the income taxes. Who can I get to do it? It is super easy with Turbo Tax. But that doesn't cut it with a man who doesn't even know how to turn a computer on.
It goes on and on. 
Two more days until my first chemotherapy. We go in at 8:30 to see Dr Savin the oncologist. He will give us the results of the tests that were done last week to determine if the cancer is anywhere else in my body including my bone marrow. After that I start my first chemo session.
We are encouraged to bring the things that we need to be comfortable. Among other things Im going to bring a big long white stole that Mom made for me many years ago. It will be perfect to wrap around my shoulders if Im cold.
Today Frank and I will do more cleaning and clearing.