Hearts and wigs and apps

 This is the card I made to give to my caretakers. I want them to see the real me. I want them to remember me. And I want them to know they are appreciated. 
First of all, I want to thank all of you for your cards and phone calls and emails. They are very uplifting. Knowing that all of you are standing with me makes me feel strong and safe. I may not always return your calls. But know that I get all of your messages and treasure them.
This morning I went  in early for a sonogram of my heart to be sure it can handle the chemo. The technician was a young woman named Kim. When I walked in the door she complimented me on my little black jacket. Naturally I had to tell her about my Nordstrom's make over with Katie. We chit chatted while she did the procedure. She was impressed by my positive attitude. She said, the ones who make it have a positive outlook. I feel very fortunate that I am adjusting to this life threatening situation and that Im not frightened about what lies ahead. When she finished the procedure she put her arms around me and hugged me and prayed for me. Just my luck to get a Christian therapist!! It sure did feel nice to have someone holding me and praying for me. I gave her one of my cards that says, 'Thanks for taking care of me. You are my angel." I guess they do these cardiograms every three months or so. I hope I get to see her again.
From there I went to a store for women who have had cancer, mostly breast ,to be fitted for a wig. I decided to get the ball rolling so that I will have it when I need it. The lady carefully matched my hair color hairstyle. I certainly don't want to go from silver to black! She tried a brown wig on me because they didn't have the style I want in silver. But they will order it and it comes in the next day or so.  She took a little skull cap made out of panty hose material. When she put it on I got a glimpse of how I would look without hair. Very sobering. The brown wig looked perfectly awful. But she explained that it would be fitted and styled just for me.
It took me most of the morning to do this. I hadn't had anything to eat all morning since I didn't get up in time for breakfast. But I made it home and wasn't starving by 11;30. Thats a big change for me.
When I got home I was reading some of the cancer literature we got yesterday. Guess what! There is a chemo website guide2chemo.com
AND there is an APP for that. Can you believe it? There is an app that you can use to keep track of your appointments. And believe me there are a slew of them. It also keeps track of blood counts, fever, medicine and a detailed log. You gotta love it. BTW its a free app!
One thing I don't have to worry about is the cost of the excellent treatment Im getting. My insurance, Medicare and Tricare pays for everything, even the wig! What a blessing!