Being sick is hard work

I left the house this morning at 9:30 to go to San Diego to be fitted for a wig. Cris came with me. It was a sweet little shop run by a very nice lady who knows her wigs and what one can expect when one looses ones hair. She had the right wig but the wrong color. She is ordering it I should be able to pick it up on Friday. She also had some very nice head wraps and hats. It's nice to know I will have some attractive choices if or when I loose my hair. It is possible that I won't loose my hair. But having the wigs and hats are my security blanket. Im still hoping to go to Northern California next week for Thanksgiving.  And I want to be prepared.
From there I went to lunch with Cris, then back to Escondido for an appointment with my psychiatrist. I want to be careful to keep the bipolar as balanced as possible. 
Ive been fighting this pain all day. Its a throbbing pain in my low back. It is very difficult to get comfortable. Suddenly I remembered what Katie said about when she goes into labor. "Give me the drugs' So I decided, hey, I have drugs. Im going to use them. When the nurse told me what to take I wasn't in pain so I didn't give it much thought. One thing she said was, 'If the tylenol doesn't help take some vicodin or something like it. Im sure you have some lying around the house.' And I do. leftover from my broken ankle.
I finally got home about 3pm. And I was hurting. So I headed for my drug stash. I couldn't even sit down comfortably. Finally I propped myself up with a heating pad in bed and it is easing up.
Frank has cancelled his golf plans . He is going to take me to my doctor appointments. I thought I could handle it. But it turns out I need him. He is the best one for the job. I have been too hard on him. He is doing his very best to take care of me and keep me comfortable. We are in this thing together. I couldn't ask for a kinder more loving man to take care of me.
Tomorrow we see the cardiologist. The Echo cardiogram was abnormal. So he will have to sort that out. I also will have some lab work drawn. On Friday I see Dr Savin the oncologist. That will be a big one.