meltdown

ok, I admit it. I had a melt down last night. But hey, Im due. I can have melt downs now and then. It kind of clears the air and flushes things through. There is nothing like a good old fashioned cry when things get overwhelming. What is more important is that I can see it as what happened yesterday, not as where I am today. I slept well last night, my brain bathed in all the good sleep chemicals and Im ready for another day.
We actually had a pretty good day yesterday. But I probably did a bit too much. We went down to iKea and got  little love seat that opens into an oversized twin bed for the guest room. The room will be all set for guests. We have removed every rug in the house because thats where the animals choose to pee barf or just roll around. So its a snap to run the dust  mop around and wet mop everything.
After iKea we went out to one of our old favorite restaurants where we haven't been for many years, Anthony's fish grotto. It brought back so many memories. Food is starting to taste kind of different to me. So I want to enjoy these special things while I can.
Last stop was the ATT store, to get Frank a new phone and pull him under my ATT umbrella. It will save us $20/month.
I had ordered my iPhone 4s and it was waiting at the Apple store. But when I went to get it I couldn't even get into the parking lot. I forgot it was a holiday. So I will try again next week.
If I will just trust the  Lord that all is exactly as it should be, I will be able to rest and watch the amazing unfoldment of my life.  I absolutely know that this is where I must be to have my cancer treated. I know I am in good hands. And I know I am loved.
After all, thats all there really is: Love
And thats what Im feeling from all of you who are reading this blog and sharing my journey.